WEIGHT 2

Weighed myself and I have remained the same, 11st 12lb. That is still really good progress and I hope to loose another pound this week. Thing is, I made a cheesecake yesterday so I will have to try and resist!

ZERO WEEK PICTURE

I took these pictures by propping the camera up on top of the computer monitor. They aren't very good so I will get Rob to do some new ones nearer the time we start trying.

OMEGA 3

Recently I have been asking Rob if he wants to start trying now rather than waiting. I'm just really eager to get on with it as it might take a while this time. He just says it isn't long to wait now anyway and also I haven't been taking folic acid for 3 months. He thinks it will take 3 months this time.

I have also bought some Omega 3 as I don't eat enough fish. This will benefit Ellis too as he is still feeding.

I got my pregnancy and birth book down from the loft this morning and was reading into all the technical stuff with regards to when I will be most fertile etc. I never really wanted to do it this way but I think that it would take even longer if we just did it at random. I don't think Rob will go for it, just doing it on certain days of the month etc. but we will see. I might just not tell him.

Feeling good and much fitter although the scales we have aren't very accurate, I am still loosing weight. Weighing day tomorrow so I will post my results then.

I've started my pros and cons list for c-section v natural delivery and will post the results soon although I am pretty sure that I will go for natural delivery. I just think it is the right thing to do. The recovery time is better and I will be able to drive.

Still really excited and can't wait!

COMPARISON

CANT WAIT!

WEIGHT

Weighed this morning, even though I am only trying to weigh on Saturday mornings. I was 12st 2lb! Hurrah, but I don't think it will stick for the next couple days. We shall see.

ELLA

Went to see Nic in hospital with her little Ella who is gorgeous by the way. I was really broody until I stepped onto the ward and the smell, heat and sounds brought it all back to me. I really didn't realise how horrid it was back then but then I suppose I was just caught up in the moment. I think it is true that I was in shock a bit really.



Nic is doing really well. It doesn't seem to have fazed her at all. She had time to put make-up on and straighten her fringe when we went to see her on the weekend. She also had a house full of people and I just wouldn't be able to cope with that. Especially second time around, Ellis will need time to adjust so we have to take it easy to start with.



I do still really want more children but what if they aren't like Ellis? I have been so lucky with him that I hope the next one doesn't unsettle the nice balance we have home here.

I am slowly getting myself back into some sort of fitter shape and I do feel better for it. Do I really want to go through all that again! After Ellis was delivered I remember being really big and very swollen. It wasn't very nice. I also have the decision over c-section or natural. There are pros and cons to both and I just have to way them all up. I'll make my mind up nearer the time.

Yoga is going well and I hope to keep that up in the long term, even if it means changing classes in the early part of the pregnancy. I will have to tell Vivien straight away so that I don't do myself or Dollop any harm.

I wonder how I could tell people this time around? I think to be honest it will be a lot harder to hide. For one thing I am drinking again so as soon as I stop, people will notice. I might slow up and stop soon anyway so that might make it a bit easier, plus if we go out Rob will have to drink and I will drive. Also no muscle tone will mean a bigger belly in the early days. I know Mum watches my weight quite closely so she will see it anyway. Last time I put on quite a few pounds in the first trimester so I shouldn't think it will be easy to hide. Ah well, we will have to see how it goes. I would like it to be a surprise but I think most people will be expecting it.

I can't wait to feel Dollop move. I really miss that feeling. I will need to cherish every bit of it as it might well be the last time I will feel it all and experience it. Sad really but I suppose you have to stop one day. I don't want 18 kids like the Dugger family!

We are into June now so only 2 months until we start trying. If I can get my weight down to 11st 7lb before then, I think we will start sooner. I'm currently 12st 6lb so a little way to go yet. I may not even make it in the next 2 months. Rob is ready to go so it is just me really.

I really do hope it is another boy and I'm not trying to bluff God. Perhaps I should stop saying it or I will end up with a girl. I would be really pleased to have a girl but I would want to buy her loads of girly things and we just couldn't afford it. I know I sound like a broken record but the money thing really bothers me, especially now that I am not earning.