TIRED, UNDERSTATEMENT - 6 WEEKS, 3 DAYS

TO TELL, OR NOT TO TELL - 5 WEEKS, 6 DAYS

According to my date calculation, I am 6 weeks pregnant today. But according to pregnancy calculators on the Internet, I am only 5 weeks today.

I think the best thing to do for now until my weeks have been confirmed is to just do a diary about what is going on and then work the dates back later. It will mean that I have to take pictures every Thursday just to make sure I get the 6 week and 12 week pictures on the right day.

I had a quick listen to my Ellis 6 week diary and I said that I was very, very bloated last time. Don't seem to be too bad this time and my boobs are not sore at all. Last time if I knocked them with my arm while walking, it would kill!

I was also really tired and I am this time too.

My sweet tooth has returned! I constantly crave chocolate and puddings rather than my usual savoury foods. That isn't a good thing as I want to keep my weight gain to normal levels this time.

I am really thirsty all the time too and I have been getting headaches on and off.

I called the doctors this morning to make an appointment, but here they don't do a doctors appointment first, you just see the midwife when you are about 10 weeks. I asked if they do a 12 week scan or not and I was just told to speak to the midwife about it. Wont need to see her until end of October.

Going out with my Mummy friends on 15th November when I will hopefully be about 12 weeks preggers. This will be a nice time to tell them I think.

I have attached what I think is the 6 week photo but I will amend it accordingly once the scan has been done.

Went to see Mum yesterday and she said she thought it was about time that I had another baby. I came out with loads of reasons that I wasn't ready etc but it was very weird to think that I am already growing a baby! I so wanted to tell her.

I kept my pregnancy test like I did last time but the results have now gone! I will have to do another one which stays.

Weeing all the time but I think that is because I am drinking so much more. I am so thirsty. I have a bit of a cold at the moment anyway which is giving me a dry throat that obviously isn't helping.

The only bad thing about not having any obvious symptoms is that you are never sure if you are still pregnant. Then again, I wouldn't want to feel sick all the time either.

Been thinking that I might need to tell my yoga group as I don't really want to do anything that might harm the baby. I will see how it goes tonight. Don't really want to tell anyone yet.

6 week photo this time.



6 week photo last time.



The dates etc on this video are wrong, so please ignore that bit.

EXCITED - 5 WEEKS, 2 DAYS

Yesterday was amazing. I was still buzzing from the results and Rob and I had the day together, without Ellis, at Simon and Teresa's wedding, and we spoke about it quite a lot.

It was so nice having this little secret between us and Rob seems really excited. He touched my belly, kept saying about the 3 of us being there, talked about the fact that we are a family of 4, and was just generally thinking about it which was really, really good for me.

Rob said that he was quite excited for Ellis. I feel a bit sad for him as he will have no idea what is going on other than the fact that Mummy can't do all the usual things and that he will have to share me. I'm sure it will work out and be fine.

Mum and Dad are back from Spain tonight and I really want to tell them. It was so hard at the wedding as I wanted to tell everyone. In fact I nearly slipped up and told Nic just before the ceremony started. I went bright red as I tried to cover my tracks! She did actually ask us if we would start trying soon.

I had a couple of cuddles with Ella during the day and I now remember that I am rubbish with newish borns. They are just too floppy and stuff and I don't know how to hold them securely. I can't wait to hold mine though.

Having no symptons yet is the best!

Sally looked after Ellis yesterday and when she put him to bed she had to find the monitor. It was in our room right next to my pregnancy and birth book and the science book that I was reading about growing baby! She will put 2 and 2 together for sure. How am I going to get around that one. Think I'm just going to say that I found them recently and thought I would read up about ovulation and stuff, to get ready for when the time comes.

Can't believe I'm pregnant! It's wicked!

PREGNANT! - 5 WEEKS

We set the camera up to film the test result and if you look closely, it is actually showing positive before Rob even walks away!



We then tried to film our response but I am a total idiot and didn't press record!



I had completely convinced myself that I wasn't pregnant so I was very, very surprised to see the positive result. Happy, but shocked.

I interviewed Rob to get his initial response.



He then interviewed me. I went to bed shortly after but was unable to sleep. I wonder why?



Can't wait to tell everyone now, hope it sticks and it is all healthy and stuff.

NEW FIGURES/PICTURES - 5 WEEKS

I managed to set up the tripod to take some new 0/4 week pictures. I also did some new measurements which have changed slightly.

0 week this time.



0 week last time.



Measurements:

Weight = 11st 6lbs
Tummy = 85cm
Upper arm = 27cm
Upper leg = 57cm
Ankle = 23.5cm
Neck = 32.5cm

All the figures are less than before so I am going to use these as the starting point, even though I might be 4/5 weeks pregnant now.

DENIAL - 5 WEEKS

ANY DAY - 4 WEEKS, 4 DAYS

Any day now! My period is due now and so far I am still having normal discharge. I do feel like my period is coming though. I am bloated, moody, craving rubbish food, hot flushes and cramps. Still nothing to show for it yet though.

If I don't come on this week I will be soooooo surprised. I have convinced myself that I am not pregnant and I am just waiting for the period to arrive. It would be the best news if I am wrong, but I don't think so.

My weight remains at around 11st 7lb and I still haven't done any new photos. I must get Rob to do some.

Mummies afternoon is due to start any minute so I have to go and get the kettle and biscuits ready.

NORMAL - 4 WEEKS, 2 DAYS

Period is due any day now. Like I said before I would be totally surprised if I was pregnant. I haven't had any symptoms at all.

I still have normal discharge so that could be a good sign, and I did have a slight headache on Friday - Saturday. Boobs feel completely normal.

Fingers and toes crossed that I don't come on and I will do a test on Thursday if I haven't by then.

To be honest it would be okay if I wasn't as I am so enjoying just being with Ellis. I really want him to continue his groups and stuff and I want to give a newborn as much attention as possible. That would be easier if Ellis was a bit older.

Off to see Grandma this morning as she is 80 today!

Went to a party last night and had loads of nice comments about how slim I looked! It was really nice to hear. I am 11st 6lbs now. I don't want to go any lower but would like to tone up a bit. Still haven't done new 0 week pictures or measurements. Might try and do that later today.

BLUFFING GOD - 3 WEEKS, 4 DAYS

SILLY BILLY - 3 WEEKS, 3 DAYS

I wasn't going to write about how I feel and stuff because I don't want to look really stupid each month.

Basically I convince myself that I am not pregnant but then little things happen, such as cramping, or feeling sick like last night, and I then think, well maybe I am and I get all excited. I then tell myself again that I am not pregnant and I should stop being so silly and reading into everything that happens.

We are out this Saturday for Alex's 30th birthday party and we have decided that Rob has to drink so that it doesn't look too suspect. He seemed okay with this. Then again I might come on early like last month and I will be able to drink instead.

I haven't weighed for a few days now which is probably a good thing as I have just been eating loads!

I so hope I don't get morning sickness. Last night I felt so sick that I took a bowl to bed with me. But the thing was, I couldn't work out if I was hungry sick or sick sick, if that makes sense.

Due on roughly on Monday 15th, but could be slightly before or after. I wanna know now! I can't stand the waiting, it drives me insane.

EFFORT - 2 WEEKS, 6 DAYS

Well if we don't get pregnant this month, it isn't through a lack of effort!

It has been quite good fun but very tiring. One more day to go and then I think my ovulation dates are over.

Yesterday I had slightly different discharge (wallpaper paste) which is exactly what I had last time. I have tried so hard to not get my hopes up but I just can't help it.

I keep looking out for other signs. I am willing my boobs to hurt!

Looking at some websites yesterday it says that even if we had sex at exactly the right time, we still only have a 26% chance of being successful! I can't believe that! I hope it doesn't take us too long.

Jaidan and Leighton have now named their son, Jasper.

IDIOT! - 2 WEEKS, 2 DAYS

What a fool! I calculated my ovulation dates wrong so we are now 2 days in to O days.

All going well so fingers crossed.

WEIGHT 4 - 1 WEEK, 6 DAYS

I have finally reached my target weight of 11st 7 lbs. I started working at loosing weight on the 19th April when I was 13st 1lb and I finished on 27th August. I just need to maintain the weight and tone up all the bits that are a bit more wobbly than they used to be.

Going to do new 0 week pictures and figures to reflect the change in weight.

I think what helped with the last couple of pound was the fact that I had finished breastfeeding Ellis. This seems to have been the turning point to the last little bit. I was still eating and exercising the same so that is the only thing I can think of that has changed.

Not long until O Day again. Best build up Rob's energy supply!

BABY WILSON - 1 WEEK

Went to see Jaidan today and her new baby boy, not yet named. He was so tiny and cute. I don't remember Ellis being that small, ever, because I think you are just so busy trying to recover and get through each day.



Plus to start with, it is just a baby and you are just doing a job and trying to get as much rest as possible. I would like to think that I skip that part and move straight on to bonding with my new son/daughter. I think it's easier when their little characters start to show though.



Seeing Jaidan in pain from her c-section certainly brought back memories. It was awful. I couldn't walk, get up or down, move in bed or do anything really. It isn't the best way to start motherhood, or the first few weeks of your newborns life.



I can't wait to have another baby but I realise it will be very different this time and much harder with Ellis too. He is a really good boy but I can see from my visit today, that it will certainly be very hectic.



I am sure I am going to go for a natural birth now. I just think the recovery time after is so much better. I might not be able to sit down comfortably for a bit but it will be much better than recovering from a c-section.



Jaidan is at that point in breast feeding, where when they first latch on it really hurts and makes your toes curl under. It lasted for about 3 days for me. I was hoping next time would be easier but Debs and Jaidan have both said that it is just as hard. Ah well, I know what to expect.



Davina McCall on Big Brother just said Dollop! Then she said she loves that word, DOLLOP! Might be a sign!

FINGERS CROSSED - 5 DAYS

Period finished yesterday and it wasn't too bad. Not painful but quite heavy for a couple of days.

I think this month we wont just try on ovulation dates as I think it's a bit too clinical. But having said that, at least we put the effort in on those days. If we leave it to pot luck, I think it might take a very long time.

Feeling very drained today so I hope I'm not coming down with something.

Fingers and toes crossed that we manage to create a new life this month. Would be lush to add to the family soon. I don't want too big an age gap between kiddies.

I so hope it doesn't take 6 months or longer! I suppose I just need to be patient and take it each day/month as it comes.

RUBBISH - 1 DAY

Been feeling rather rubbish today. Period is a constant reminder that I'm not pregnant.

Think I have this virus thing that Ellis had. Sore throat, neck, head and stuff. Rob has it too.

Spent the day with Mum wanting to chat to her about it all but couldn't.

The last couple of days I've been going crazy getting the house tidy and a bit cleaner. It needs a really good spring clean really, like cleaning in cupboards and hoovering under all the furniture but I just can't do it all.

Rob is away on a stag do so I have the house to myself which is actually okay.

Wish we could come into some money. Would be nice to just feel financially secure and able to buy little things every now and then without worrying about the consequences. Rob is working hard for that.

DOWN

I was really down all day yesterday and chatting to Mum I really wanted to tell her why but couldn't.

In my last diary, Rob said I sounded like we had been trying for 6 months already with no success. But that is how it feels. I have been thinking and preparing since the beginning of April so it has been a long time for me.

Trying to feel and be a bit more laid back about it, and hopefully it will happen before Christmas.

I was hoping that the due date wouldn't be around Ellis' birthday as we have quite a bit on in August now and a new member would just add to the load. But then again I wouldn't complain if I got pregnant around that time anyway.

Rob is away this weekend which isn't that nice for me or Ellis, but hopefully it will do Rob some good to have some down time.

BOO! PERIOD!

FUNNY

Feeling really funny this morning. Hot flushes and period cramps. It feels like my period is coming! Oh no!

Rather strange feelings, dizzy one minute, okay the next. Been wanting to get a lie down but Ellis hasn't allowed me too.

Been peeing all day too! Perhaps I've increased my fluid intake and that's why. I'm certainly not used to going so often.

Boobs aren't tender. Last time that was my major symptom. I had the most tender boobs ever! Maybe because I am breast feeding still it wont be as bad.

Only 4 days to find out, possibly less if I come on before then.

Discharge is normal.

HURRY

No symptoms today, boo!

I've been feeling really tired and weeing all the time but that's about it. Hurry up Sunday!

Weighed this morning and I'm 11st 9lb, hurrah!