DOWN

I was really down all day yesterday and chatting to Mum I really wanted to tell her why but couldn't.

In my last diary, Rob said I sounded like we had been trying for 6 months already with no success. But that is how it feels. I have been thinking and preparing since the beginning of April so it has been a long time for me.

Trying to feel and be a bit more laid back about it, and hopefully it will happen before Christmas.

I was hoping that the due date wouldn't be around Ellis' birthday as we have quite a bit on in August now and a new member would just add to the load. But then again I wouldn't complain if I got pregnant around that time anyway.

Rob is away this weekend which isn't that nice for me or Ellis, but hopefully it will do Rob some good to have some down time.