SCARED - 36 WEEKS, 2 DAYS

Up early this morning and feeling a bit strange. It started yesterday and I think I figured out why. I think Dollop has twisted around and is laid on my back. It has been making me feel rather queer for a couple of days now. I've done all I can to make him move but he isn't budging.

With his new position comes lower back ache. Not very nice and quite hard work when you have a toddler to take care of too.

Done the bump pictures this morning but I think I look awful, especially in the forward facing picture, so I haven't posted it. My face is well puffy! I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that it's just water retention. I was so wrong last time!



Can't stop thinking about labour, birth, recovery, taking care of baby, what's going to happen etc. I must admit I'm feeling rather scared and worried at the moment. My life is about to change all over again, for the rest of my life! I'm excited and happy too but mainly scared at the moment. I suppose that's because it is all so close.

My hospital bag is 90% done now which is good. There are a few things missing but they aren't essential as such. The cameras aren't ready yet which is quite important so will try and do them tomorrow. The rest can just be bought in by Rob after.

Struggling a bit at the moment but I am sure that will pass. Have quite a lot on next week so tons to take my mind of things and to have a good time too. Yoga Monday, Nothing Tuesday, Active Birth Wednesday, out with the girls for a meal Thursday, line dance Friday then we have a partner workshop on Saturday for the active birthing class and a children's party on Sunday. I will then be 37 weeks + 2 days! Time is flying!

I will probably end up going over by 12 days by saying this but I just have a feeling that Dollop is going to come early. I don't know by how much but I just think he will. We really need to sort out a name soon as I don't want to be sending messages out to people saying baby is born. I want him to have an identity. I have 2 names that I really like. One is a bit riskier than the other but Rob doesn't like either. I don't know how were going to solve the issue as we never make the time to discuss it properly.

I need to get my positive head back on. Just need to find it. Some decent sleep might help but I'm sure that is about to become an every day occurrence.