Monday, 24 August 2009

FAILING - 12 WEEKS, 6 DAYS OLD

As I sit and watch my littlest Angel sleeping, I feel like I am failing him. This feeling comes after watching some old videos of Ellis last night. I realised that I am not doing anywhere near as much with Leo as I did with Ellis and it hurts me.

A few things that have been lacking:

music class - Ellis started at 12 weeks
tummy time - Ellis was already holding his head up nicely
Bumbo time
door bouncer time
mat time
chatting time
Daddy time - nothing can be done about this for now
being in a big bed in his own room - Ellis would occasionally have a nap in his big bed

practicing using a bottle for feeds - This was good for when I wanted to go out

I realise that by having a toddler who is potty training will effect my time I can spend with Leo but as far as I'm concerned, that isn't a good enough excuse. I know I can't do it all but I should, if that makes sense.

So this morning, Leo has had tummy time, been in the Bumbo, had time in the door bouncer and played on his mat. This afternoon I will attempt to e-mail Debs about the music class and will sign him up for Sing and Sign in January. I am also going to buy him a bed and get his room sorted out for him. I know it means I will have 2 cots but I don't care. Ikea sell them for £45 and I would buy a new mattress anyway so there is no saving there. Ellis is fine in his cot, which will eventually be used as a bed for Leo when Ellis has his big bed. Decision made, just need to buy it all now. Will try and do some research tonight.

Also, Ellis was going swimming once a week by now. We are going this afternoon and I am hoping that maybe my Mum could come with us regularly so that Leo can go in too. I will have to ask.

There are not enough hours in the day for me to do all that I want to do, nor do I have the energy to do it. Maybe there is no room for one more baby. :o(

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