PERIOD PAINS - 38 WEEKS, 1 DAY

Didn't sleep very well last night. Rob didn't come to bed until really late which keeps me up. When he did come to bed, he was rather fidgety for a while so I didn't go back to sleep for ages. I think it was about 3am.

I was awake a couple of hours later with a period like ache down low. It was quite distracting and I couldn't settle. I was thinking this is the start of something. I'm very paranoid this time and unable to ignore all the little things. Last time I wasn't too bothered although I think I was sleeping on a towel by now.

Ellis woke up really early anyway so I got up with him and I was still getting the sensation for another hour or so.

It is now just gone 8:30am and I seem okay at the moment. I do feel like things are changing/progressing. Getting funny aches, twinges and pains daily now. Sunday night wouldn't be a bad time to start though. Would really like to enjoy this weekend with my boys first.

My thoughts are changing still, for the better which is great. This morning I almost thought, if I had to have a c-section it isn't so bad. Ha! I think the closer the inevitable gets, the more "whatever" my attitude becomes. I suppose it's because you start to realise that there is nothing you can about what is about to happen.

I was cuddling Dollop this morning thinking about the pregnancy coming to an end, and I was sad. I love being pregnant although it is hard work for me and the ones closest around me. I'd like to think that it wont be the last time but it probably will be. Give it a couple of years and I might have talked Rob into it. I think I will just wait and see how I get on with 2 first as seeing Cathy yesterday made me realise that your life is no longer your own, at any point!

Dollop seems really low and my pelvis is really hurting most of the time now. I'm doing my best to just get on with it but it is rather hard at times. He is also moving loads too which is reassuring. I think it must be his leg or foot on the top left hand side. Hopefully that is a good position.

I'm still worried about how and who will have Ellis. Dave will be fine with the bath and bed routine as he has seen it many times and I have told him what to do first thing in the morning, i.e. change his nappy, give him breakfast at 7:30am of 2 bits of toast and some grapes. He would normally have Ready Brek or Weetabix but I think toast would be easier.

I am so ready for bed again now. Hopefully Ellis will go to sleep at 10am.