My Mum stayed with Ellis and I took Leo to the doctors with me. I basically said I wanted her to have a good old look at me bits to make sure that nothing had been missed at the hospital. She had a proper rummage and said a few things.
The main thing is that she is referring me to the gynecological clinic as she thinks I need surgery to properly repair my tear. Having inspected it she said that it looks just like she would expect it to look the day after giving birth and she is unsure why it hasn't healed, and why it has healed the way it has. The way that it has healed has left a skin tag that is still very raw which has been inhibiting my sex life. What sex life!? With it being a bit sore down there we haven't even attempted it, poor hubby and now poor me!
I must point out that on a day to day basis it doesn't bother me and I'm not walking around in constant pain, and if I had my time again, I would still go for a vaginal delivery and not a c-section. The only thing I would change would be to have a stitch in the first place. I think I was so hung up on going the natural route that when they said I could have a stitch or not, I just thought I would rather go the natural route again, after all I had just had a natural labour and birth.
She checked my bladder and said she was happy with it although it is still slightly prolapsed, it isn't leaking! Too much information I know. I'm seeing my physio to work on that.
So now I wait. I wonder how long it is going to take to get an appointment? It's something I'm not really looking forward too and I can't wait to get it out of the way. I hope they do a good job of it.
Anyway I have the physio tomorrow and Charlotte and Faith are taking care of Ellis for me which is great as I don't really want him to see me having my bits examined. Will try and get some answers about the prospect of it getting better or not and if I will be able to give birth again, just in case.
As for Leo, he is a brilliant baby. He has started to laugh a lot and I have today found his ticklish spot. If you tickle his collar bones right under his chin he laughs until he gets hiccups.
He dribbles tons and I'm sure he has teeth right by the surface ready to come through. Ellis was an early teether so I'm expecting the same with Leo.
He hasn't been doing as much turning around on his mat recently but he does love to have a good wriggle on the floor and he loves bouncing in his door bouncer.
Leo recently slept in his big bed for the first time, and he managed to sleep in it again today around the same time that Ellis went down for his nap. If only they would both regularly sleep from 11am until 1pm! Wishful thinking.
His sleeping is still very up and down and I'm not going to worry about it until he is 6 months old. I'm demand feeding so if he demands it, he gets it even if it has only been 2 hours since his last feed. Every baby is different and Ellis fed loads more than Leo so I consider myself quite lucky that he goes sometimes 3 1/2 hours between feeds. He doesn't nap that much during the day, the odd 20 minutes here and there as he is woken up by Ellis quite a lot. Ellis either shouts or kisses him. He is also still doing the double feed thing at night and has recently started to wake up for the 2am feed again. It's a bit of a bugger when he doesn't want to go back to sleep but he usually feeds and goes back down okay.
He is regularly wearing proper clothes now rather than his grows, which are starting to look like pyjamas now anyway. For all the clothes I had for Ellis, there doesn't seem to be much left or the right stuff for this time of year. I keep putting him in the same things. Never mind, he doesn't care I don't mind.
Can't really think of anything else to mention for now. Will probably do an update after my physio appointment.
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