PHYSIO - 15 WEEKS OLD

I cried at the physiotherapist today. It's all just getting to me a bit at the moment. Having your bits examined regularly isn't very pleasant and it feels like it has been going on for ages now, and I just want it over. I mean I gave birth (yes I did it!) nearly 3 1/2 months ago!

I feel completely minging and all I want to do is comfort eat. I'm sulking and I need to snap out of it and fast.

The appointment was a bit of a waste of time but at least I came away with no questions left to ask.

We chatted for ages. I told her the new pooing position is a revelation for me and I am slowly spreading the word on how you should be doing it. We discussed the referral to the gyni clinic and she said she would call my doctor to try and find out when I should receive an appointment and she said she would try and chase the consultants direct too. She sounded like she really wanted to help me get things sorted, and fast.

We ran through all the exercises that I should be doing and she checked my stomach muscles again, saying they were good.

She didn't examine me as she said I need to recover from my surgery before she can perform any tests to check my bladder and pelvic floor muscle and we didn't even book a future appointment.

I did ask, amazingly, if I would be able to give birth again and she said it would be fine. I didn't ask details on how it would all work but I don't care about that, just needed to know that it might be possible.

I know I'm going through a lot of trouble with me bits at the moment but it appears to be a rare occurrence and most people come out the other side fine. I'm just one of those people that suffers through pregnancy and birth even though I really love it. I'm just extremely grateful and feel blessed that I was even able to get pregnant and have 2 healthy baby boys. I read a lot of infertility blogs and I really feel for those women. I can't even start to imagine what it would feel like to be infertile. When we didn't get pregnant the first month I was devastated! I really do consider myself very lucky.

Things will get sorted eventually and it will soon be a distant memory, hopefully.